Hi friend,
How is your relationship with reading right now? Thatโs a question I asked myself at the start of this year. At the time, I felt totally detached from it. I didnโt read much in the second half of 2024, and could hardly remember what Iโd read in the first (other than a few personal finance books). I suppose I was preoccupied, and had other things on my mind. But I also couldnโt seem to find any stories I liked enough to get sucked in. In fact, one of the only novels I can remember reading and liking in 2024 was HELLO BEAUTIFUL by Ann Napolitano. Outside of that? *shrugs* I started a lot and finished almost nothing.
I donโt like to track the number of books I read. In fact, I would go so far as to say that I hate the whole concept. I do not want to gamify my reading and rush through books to hit some arbitrary target, and I really donโt want to miss said arbitrary target and feel as though Iโm not reading โenoughโ. The data also doesnโt mean anything! It doesnโt matter if I read 10 books in a year, or 20, or 50. And I donโt think being a fast reader or reading a lot of books makes you a better reader than anyone else. Iโm a slow reader. And, I know I will always read some words and some books each year. Thatโs good enough for me.
I do, however, like tracking things when they feel off/out of alignment. And my relationship with reading felt very off in 2024. Detached, didnโt finish much, couldnโt remember what I had read, etc. So for 2025, I decided to start tracking the titles of books I finish. That might sound like the same thing as setting a reading goal, but itโs not. Itโs more like tracking your spending, but not necessarily trying to stick to a specific budget. I donโt care how many books I read. I just want to know the titles of what I finish. Because I am happy to quit books, and do it all the time! So if I actually finish a book, that means I loved it. At the end of the year, I want to look at this list and remember what I loved.
As it turns out, Iโve loved a lot of books already. Weโre only halfway through May and the list is longer than I couldโve imagined! Iโd like to share two with you now and give you a chance to win them both. Itโs been about a year since our last book giveaway (because I wasnโt reading much)โฆ so letโs make it a good one!
Paying subscribers can enter this giveaway by leaving a comment answering the question at the bottom of this post. Iโll randomly select the winners on Saturday, May 31st! But first, let me tell you about the booksโฆ
First, a little disclaimerโbecause at first glance, you might look at these books and think Cait! These are so serious! And you donโt like reading scary books! And you would be correct. I donโt normally go for books that feel too serious (or too realistic and/or possible)โespecially right now, when the world feels serious enough. These books are about catastrophic events. The protagonists are left alone and afraid. But they are also brave. They do things Iโm not sure I could ever do myself. And the writing is incredible. Fast-paced. Emotional. Vivid. Poetic.
There are similar themes in both books. Like how people respond to devastating events. The relationships you think about most, when youโre alone and believe your life is in danger. And the relationships we have with our homes and the towns/cities we live in (and how those relationships change when your circumstances do). You will feel the locations in these books.
Thereโs no doubt that these are survivalist stories. If youโre not up for reading that right now, I totally understand! But thereโs so much power and beauty in the writing. I couldnโt put either of them down. And one of my commitments is to share the books I canโt put down (and also canโt stop talking about). These are two of them. One middle grade, one adult, both for one of you.


ALONE by Megan E. Freeman
Middle grade fiction (suggested reading age on the back cover = 10+)
This book wasnโt on my radar. I kept coming across the authorโs second book, AWAY, and I do want to read that one. But then I watched a video that said AWAY was sort of a parallel story to her first book, so I figured I should start there. I asked to order a copy of ALONE for me a couple months ago (actually, she ordered the second book Iโm going to tell you about too!), and I immediately loved the writing. By page 32, I was hooked on the story.
This is a book about Maddie (age 12), who lies to her parents about where she will be sleeping one night, then wakes up and discovers her entire city (in Colorado) has been evacuated and sheโs the only person left behind. Within a few days, the power gets shut off. Heat and water too. And thereโs no cell signal, so no way to connect with her family or friends. She is alone and has to find ways to survive.
The story is intense, but the writing is present and beautiful. Itโs written entirely in verse (poems). So there are no big paragraphs, no lengthy descriptions. Just short, action-packed linesโand ones that place you in her mind/body/soul. I havenโt read many books in verse. I think the last one I read was OTHER WORDS FOR HOME by Jasmine Warga, which Iโd like to revisit. But I loved this book. It was the authorโs debut novel (came out a few years ago) and is still on the NYT bestseller list today. If you read it, I think youโll understand why.
One tiny spoiler: there were a few short scenes of animals dying/being killed (not by the protagonist) that hurt my tender heart to read. Outside of that, itโs not a violent book. Just an intense plot!


TILT by Emma Pattee
Adult fiction
Unlike the first book, TILT was on my radar, because it was written by an old friend from my personal finance blogging days. Emma was always so supportive of my own writing career. The last time I saw her was in Portland in January 2019 (which might have also been the last time I was in the US!?), when she came to my event at Powellโs Books to celebrate the paperback release of THE YEAR OF LESS. Portland also happens to be where her novel is set.
Novel feels like the keyword here. Emma didnโt stay in the personal finance world either. Sheโs now a climate journalist and fiction writer. When she sent an email to let friends know her debut novel was coming out, I already knew I would buy it to support her. Then I read the premise, which was just four sentences: โAnnie is nine months pregnant. Sheโs shopping for a crib at IKEA. Thatโs when the massive earthquake hits. Thereโs nothing to do but walk.โ
The โmassive earthquakeโ sheโs referring to here is the long-anticipated Cascadia Earthquakeโsomething that hasnโt even happened yet, but everyone who grew up along the fault line running from Canada to California has been told is coming one day. Most of my teachers would say something along the lines of, โThe big one will happen in the next 100 years.โ Itโs expected to be a 7+ magnitude earthquake that will cause devastating damage up and down the west coast.
Nobody really likes thinking about this, and for that reason I can see why some people might not be up for reading a fictional story about it. I would typically be one of those people! But Emmaโs writing blew me away. The book follows Annieโs journey for the first 24 hours after the earthquake hits, so itโs present and fast-paced. Itโs also raw and reflective and incredibly descriptive. The whole time I was reading, I felt like I was watching a movie in my head (and I wouldnโt be surprised if it gets optioned for a film or miniseries). I finished it thinking: omg, how do people write like this!?!? I donโt know, but she did it!
Iโm proud of Emma (and a little bit in awe still) but mostly I feel excited for her. TILT has only been out for 7 weeks and itโs already gotten a TON of press and reviews. Itโs been a USA Today bestseller, was chosen as a โbest book of the weekโ by New York Magazine, and is an editorโs pick on various bookselling sites. Itโs also been given 6,000+ ratings on Goodreads already. PEOPLE ARE READING TILT! I want you to be one of those people. โบ๏ธ
To enter to win this two-book bundle, simply leave a comment answering this question: what is one (1) book you have LOVED so far this year?
This giveaway is open to all paying subscribers of The Lighthouse. Iโll ship them anywhere in the world! (Even if it takes a while to get there!) It closes Friday, May 30th. Iโll choose a winner + notify them that weekend!